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My puppy, his name is Brucie. He is the up-most, ultimate brattiest dog to ever roam this Earth. And I got him, and I love him.

So, today I bought a Celtic CD. It's pretty cool. I feel weird listening to it because it's a not any of my Nationalitys. I'm 1/2 Mexican and 1/2 French Canadian. But, I really like it. It reminds me of fairies.

I want to draw some cool mermaids and fairies. I just haven't had the time. But I want to, and I feel as I do, I'm going to ruin the image in my head. You know when you want to draw this really cool and when you finally do it never comes out like you want it. Hopefully it will come out better than I have imagined.

tonight before I go to bed, I think I'm going to mess around with my cards. I haven't done that in a week or 2.

Today, I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of my friends, I'm sick of "friends", I'm sick of everyone and everything, I'm sick of my dog, I'm sick of my guy. I'm sick of my house, I'm of heartburn. I'm just sick.

I tired of getting used. I know I tattoo, ok fine. I tattoo my friends when I get bored for free. that's fine, but when they just want and want and want and want without even saying thank you. with out giving back. I tattoo them and they say well I already planned out my next tattoo. Honestly, I don't give a fuck about their next tattoo. I truly don't. they can fuck off. why can't they just be happy they got a free tattoo or at least a new tattoo.

Everything it just pissing me off, maybe i sound like a spoiled brat. but fuck. I want to run away. I want to stay in my perfect world in my head.

I also keep failing myself. I want to lose weight because I want my health back. I want to lose about 70 pounds by the end of the year, but I can't seem to even start. I don't know why. It's hard but I really need to do it. get back to being able to buy clothes in regular stores again. even pants. I don't even know what size I am in pant anymore. This job is taking a toll on me. My plan to lose weight is to:

-Eat serving sizes only and nothing more and less
-walk my dog everyday around the block at least twice
-drink lots of water
-eat more natural stuff

to me that sound like it would be easy, but Jesus. I'm not making excuses. I'm going to do it! I have too! and I am.


But seriously I'm just sick of everyone and I just want to go away. just leave for a while and maybe not come back.

If you read this I'm sorry.