The rant to the nationsI tired of getting used. I know I tattoo, ok fine. I tattoo my friends when I get bored for free. that's fine, but when they just want and want and want and want without even saying thank you. with out giving back. I tattoo them and they say well I already planned out my next tattoo. Honestly, I don't give a fuck about their next tattoo. I truly don't. they can fuck off. why can't they just be happy they got a free tattoo or at least a new tattoo.
Everything it just pissing me off, maybe i sound like a spoiled brat. but fuck. I want to run away. I want to stay in my perfect world in my head.
I also keep failing myself. I want to lose weight because I want my health back. I want to lose about 70 pounds by the end of the year, but I can't seem to even start. I don't know why. It's hard but I really need to do it. get back to being able to buy clothes in regular stores again. even pants. I don't even know what size I am in pant anymore. This job is taking a toll on me. My plan to lose weight is to:
-Eat serving sizes only and nothing more and less
-walk my dog everyday around the block at least twice
-drink lots of water
-eat more natural stuff
to me that sound like it would be easy, but Jesus. I'm not making excuses. I'm going to do it! I have too! and I am.
But seriously I'm just sick of everyone and I just want to go away. just leave for a while and maybe not come back.
If you read this I'm sorry.
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I get the whole tattoo thing too. I had a cousing come to town this summer, wanting a tattoo, him and his wife, and I was willing to do it, said ok and all, then when his wife was talking to my sister, my sister mentioned my minimum price was $40 to cover supplies, she was all like $40? I got this tattoo for $40, and my sister replied 'oh yeah? what is it?' LOL cause she said she couldn't even make out what it was. I mean, yeah, I'm not the best tattooer, but why should I be expected to do it free when it costs me for stuff. People are always telling me what tattoo they want, and I just feel like telling the to f*ck off, go to a shop and get tattooed and stop bothering me.
Anyway, I get the weight thing too. I mean I've only got maybe 15 pounds to lose, but this summer has been horrible weather, which is when I usually take off those few winter pounds. I've always been thin my whole life, so a few extra makes me feel horrible. I hate myself, and I get all insecure and retarded when I hate myself, and my hubby might be at the end of his wits with me about that right now.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that there are people who understand. Keep your chin up!
The tattoo thing is never going to end. And I"m glad you have a minimum! That makes me happy. People always want shit for free. people you don't even know. people only want to look out for themselves. I say fuck it! Let'
s just look out for ourselves!
the weight thing I understand with you too. It's hard. I just don't have the time but I need too. Sitting around all day doing nothing it hard.
FUCK!!! hahahahahahaha!
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