Today, I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of my friends, I'm sick of "friends", I'm sick of everyone and everything, I'm sick of my dog, I'm sick of my guy. I'm sick of my house, I'm of heartburn. I'm just sick.

I tired of getting used. I know I tattoo, ok fine. I tattoo my friends when I get bored for free. that's fine, but when they just want and want and want and want without even saying thank you. with out giving back. I tattoo them and they say well I already planned out my next tattoo. Honestly, I don't give a fuck about their next tattoo. I truly don't. they can fuck off. why can't they just be happy they got a free tattoo or at least a new tattoo.

Everything it just pissing me off, maybe i sound like a spoiled brat. but fuck. I want to run away. I want to stay in my perfect world in my head.

I also keep failing myself. I want to lose weight because I want my health back. I want to lose about 70 pounds by the end of the year, but I can't seem to even start. I don't know why. It's hard but I really need to do it. get back to being able to buy clothes in regular stores again. even pants. I don't even know what size I am in pant anymore. This job is taking a toll on me. My plan to lose weight is to:

-Eat serving sizes only and nothing more and less
-walk my dog everyday around the block at least twice
-drink lots of water
-eat more natural stuff

to me that sound like it would be easy, but Jesus. I'm not making excuses. I'm going to do it! I have too! and I am.


But seriously I'm just sick of everyone and I just want to go away. just leave for a while and maybe not come back.

If you read this I'm sorry.

I just turned on the music for the shop, and FUCK(!), was it loud. AHHH!!!

SO, I'm finally feeling better. I missed three days of work because I had a viral infection in my lungs. Tis' gross. The sucky part I really want to smoke but I can't but I still do...

SO, on September 19th, my guy and myself and his brother are going to see Social Distortion. Yay! I'm excited. I've only been to one real concert and that was MSI. That was the best day of my life.

anyhow, I have a question! I want get a new Icon for my DA. Does anyone want to trade some art for a icon? I'm down if you are. Hit me up if so.

The last time I wrote in my journal, I was still living with my parents, back in December 2008. I never write in my Journal, I should write some more. I always have something to say, either it be negative or positive or something.

Tonight there is blood on the moon. Last night also. Keep your protection up and expect someone to come by.

I also want to may be start some commissions. If someone would like to get a tattoo drawn up or something, we can do and art trade.

Let me know what you think!

Malchik Gay, Malchik Gay, Won't you please stay with me!!! Malchik Gay, Malchik Gay!!!

Watching tv, I saw something that scared the shit out of me. In the 1970's a doctor wanted to see if he could transplant a money brain or head onto another dead monkey and see if it would come alive. And it DID!!!!!!!!! So fucking scary! I hate him for doing that. I really do and it showed film of it chewing and shit! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!